There’s a lot of supportive people around me and they keep encouraging me to share my stuff (thank you ). When they tell me, it sounds wonderful and fascinating and worth sharing.
But not really like me.
Why would I share more from my “poster life” in the Alps if there’ so much of the dark stuff, too? It doesn’t seem honest. Why would I share personal development I think I should have managed months ago? Why be one more person sharing the insights others have talked about so much more eloquently than I ever could?
It’s tough to remain open and awake for possibility. I sometimes wonder if it’s another smart people thing that makes things worse (I don’t know?): Seeing all the stuff you can’t do yet (but you know is within reach somehow). Intuitively “getting” masterpieces and how they might be achieved – only to become discouraged by the huge pile of work to get there. And forgetting about what you already have to offer.
I think many smart people live in “full immersion” – being open, curious and learning, oh my, beloved learning. And oddly, there’s some different sort of comfort in that life “out of the comfort zone”. By focussing on what we can’t do yet, we turn this blind eye to what we already can and how we might share our genius with the world (no no no, not good enough yet!)
So, the default option often is to either “be the learning student” or some sort of “the all-knowing master” (What a discomfort lurking in that one!). Consciously bridging them and being both and sharing from this vulnerable place – that’s breaking the pattern at least I am set up to here. My coach Adam says you have to embrace the vision of potentially being the “bad” thing in order not to keep creating workarounds to avoid it (yep, definitely true for me here) – So, well… here is to the all-knowing master Anna who knows how life works